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just something!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim…

The talkative me shows her side again today, thus I couldn’t stop talking (within myself actually) since this evening. I talk to myself about almost everything that came across my mind.

Alhamdulillah mama is recovering from her newly-passed-operation. She has to follow a very strict diet; she cannot do any heavy works/house chores, the only thing that she can do is rest! The kind-hearted-doctor (I don’t have the chance to meet him! oh, please alin! no mengada-ngada ok?) has given her 1 moth MC and after 1 week, she already complained that she’s boring with this type of life…^^

Since our grand chef (mama) is sick, so I am the person-in-charge for cooking and house cleaning. Though I’m not really a good chef but after a week, I can proudly say that I’m not that bad in cooking, just need some practice and some confidence. At least the most famous food critic, my beloved abah, has approved my ‘kari’ and my ‘asam pedas’, ok? Plus, both of the food critic and the grand chef approved my simple ‘ikan haruan masak stim’ that I cook for her. Hehe, just wanna brag a little bit since I know that I’m not really good in cooking ‘lauk-pauk’ back then!

I’ve been calling my dear friend in Egypt (as I thought she’s still there) for several times after having a short chat with another my dear friend in India last few days. But nobody pick up the phone. I’m quite disappointed as maybe I’m too eager to know the latest news about her since the chaos broke in Egypt.

Suddenly I got a call from an unknown number last night and it was her! Ah, I’m so relief and very glad to hear her voice. I’m too happy that she was here in Malaysia since 4^th Feb and I felt like crying on the phone for that. Unluckily we couldn’t talk much as I have something to attend but it’s good to know she’s safe!

To my dear friend in India, good luck for your exam! Aja, aja fighting!!! Don’t forget to give me your number phone there, maybe I’ll call you if I have enough credits!

Since evening I’ve been reading and ‘godek-godek’ a lot of blogs. There were some that catch my attention and I’ll state 2 for you.

1 . masafzal.blogspot.com.

Actually, I’ve been following this blog since December last year. I found this blog through an entry in saifulislam.com, expressing condolence to the family of the owner of the blog. I would like to suggest to you, especially doctors-to-be, to read this life journal of Mas Afzal. You’ll find something good in return as well as increasing your knowledge in medical-related-field since he was a medical student. Please, read this touching blog and take whatever you think as precious lessons for you.

2 . (I’ve forgotten the address and I’m too lazy to open the history file)

This 2^nd blog is about a girl. An average-Asian-girl who is not a hot babe - I’m sorry for being rude but she’s really not physically an attractive woman (she admits it by herself) – with low self-esteem during school years. But now, she has a very handsome-caring-kind-hearted-and-romantic-American boyfriend! They have been in this long-distance-relationship for 8 years.

Put everything aside as I’m not in a position to agree with the ‘coupling culture’, but I wanted to stress on 1 thing here - there are always someone that can accept you the way you are, there are always somebody that can accept the good and bad sides of yours; no matter who you are, no matter how you look!

This makes me think of myself, suddenly. Sure, I’m not a hot and gorgeous woman but I could say that I’m very grateful to be like this, to be me myself. I believe that everybody has their own charms which only certain people would realize it. But, do I really have charm/s? Dunno, you answer me~

atas nama syahadah!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...salam satu aqidah!

Sekadar luahan rasa akal yg sedang berkerja keras menganalisis perkara yg berlaku disekeliling, di dalam kampus, di dalam masyarakat...di dalam negara...mungkin!

1.   Bila difikirkan kembali, ape yg telah saya, awak, dan setiap sorang daripada kita telah dan akan buat atas nama Islam dan aqidah yg sama yg benar2 bertepatan dgn syariat Islam yg agung? Saya? Saya akui tak banyak yg telah saya berjaya sumbangkan, lebih banyak utk kepentingan diri sendiri sahaja tapi masih waras utk berfikir baik buruk kesan perbuatan saya kpd orang disekeliling. Insya-Allah, sedaya upaya saya takkan buat sesuatu yg memberi kesan negatif kpd org lain biarpun terpaksa korbankan keinginan atau kepentingan diri sendiri.

2.   Bila difikirkan semula, perlu ke seorang mukmin yg berusaha menegakkan amar ma’ruf mengganggap seorang mukmin yg lain, yg juga cuba melakukan amar ma’ruf, sebagai satu ancaman? Ancaman? Ancaman dari segi ape? Pening saya memikirkannya, tak masuk dek akal saya ape maknanya...kenapa perlu bermusuh sesama sendiri jika benar2 ingin menegakkan amar ma’ruf?

3.   Sepatutnya kita harus bersyukur sebab masih ada pihak lain yg sama2 ingin berjuang meninggikan syiar Islam, mungkin mereka mampu melakukan sesuatu yg tak mampu kita lakukan. Mungkin kita tak bekerjasama secara langsung tapi sekurang-kurangnya kita perlu saling melengkapi dan saling menguatkan dalam menempuh mehnah jalan dakwah. Jangan hanya kerana pendekatan mereka berlainan daripada cara kita, maka kita membenci dan memusuhi mereka. Kita patut berterima kasih pada mereka. Berterima kasihlah kpd mereka selagi mana mereka tidak melanggar batas2 Islam!

4.   Bila difikirkan dgn teliti, ada tak perbuatan kita yg lepas2 menjadi fitnah kpd Islam? Muhasabah kembali, ada tak antara tindakan2 yg bakal kita lakukan dimasa depan akan menimbulkan fitnah kpd Islam? Ada atau tidak? Tepuk dada tanya iman! Apa pandangan org awam, jika ahli2 agama yg dikatakan memperjuangkan Islam, dilihat saling menyalahkan? Apa pendapat org bukan Islam, jika org yg mengaku Islam dan bersaksikan syahadatain, dilihat bergaduh sesama sendiri? Jika ini berlaku, bagaimana mungkin kita terangkan kepada insan yg dalam musafir mencari jalan pulang bahawa Islam itu indah, mendamaikan dan mampu menjadi penawar kpd segala kelukaan?

5.   Islam menggalakkan kita supaya sentiasa bersangka baik sesama muslim. Betul, memang susah utk sentiasa bersangka baik pada org lain kerana takde manusia biasa yg sempurna dan juga kerana tak semua orang benar2 mempunyai niat yg baik pada setiap perbuatannye yg baik. Mungkin kita akan kelesuan berhadapan dgn situasi seperti ini, tapi tak salahkan mencuba? Tak salahkan berusaha agar bersangka baik setiap masa? Mungkin kita akan gagal pada percubaan yg pertama tapi tak bererti kita akan terus gagal dalam percubaan2 yg seterusnya. Yakinlah, dgn cara ini hati kita akan lebih bersedia menghadapi segala macam karenah umat akhir zaman.

6.   Sedar atau tidak, masyarakat kini sering disogokkan dgn slogan ‘tak semua org agama itu baik dan tak semua org awam itu jahat’. Itulah realiti yg saya fikir tak mungkin dapat dinafikan, tapi wajarkah kita biarkan sahaja ia berlarutan tanpa disusuli dgn tindakan? Adakah kita mahu biarkan nila setitik merosakkan susu sebelanga? Adakah kita mahu mengiakan slogan itu atau kita mahu mengubah persepsi itu? Moga tindakan kita seiring dgn bicara kita juga selari dgn kehendak-Nya!

Ya Allah, ya Rabb, ya Rahman, ya Rahim...ku mohon, satukanlah hati2 kami atas jalan menuju rahmat dan redha-Mu...